I’m getting nowhere on this gut treadmill.When you run on a treadmill, you’re working hard and perhaps even making progress. But even when you’re moving, you’re not going anywhere.
When you run on a treadmill, you’re working hard and perhaps even making progress. But even when you’re moving, you’re not going anywhere.
When you hit the roads outside, you take real strides moving forward; the scenery changes and at the end of the run, you can say you’ve run past x, y and z.
Getting Nowhere on this Gut Treadmill
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My gut has been on a treadmill for far too long.
I’m desperate for the road.
I promised myself that today would begin 101 days: healing.
Here I find myself, almost a month after that promise.
I find myself in such a different place than I was exactly a year ago today when I proclaimed: just relax.
I find myself desperate to kill the voices that tell me “101 days is ridiculous.” In his book, Start., Jon Acuff says, “Simply put, if you don’t kill your voices, they will kill you.”
I find myself extremely bloated. I’d love to show you the pictures I took this past weekend, but the truth is that today is just not the day for it.
I find myself more tired than usual, with joint pain and an overwhelming uptight and not right attitude.
I find myself wanting to make excuses.
There are none.
I brought myself to this place, and only I can get myself out.
I found myself questioning:
Could I truly heal my gut for good if I put as much time, energy, resources and focus on it as I have been known to do with my workouts and other pieces to my life?
The road to healing is not found in a diet book, and it is certainly not found in a doctor’s office.
The road to healing is found deep within.
The road to healing is found in true commitment.
It’s not going to be easy. At all. Not even a little bit. But I have not felt 110% since 2009. And I want that back, desperately.
For the record: No, the next 101 days is not going to be a journal of everything I eat every single day. For one, I’m out living, not blogging 24/7. And for two, Gut Healing is not a Diet – and I’ll tell you all about that later this week.
Time to jump off the treadmill….
And back on the beautiful road.
Xox,
SKH
You will heal. I will help.
HUGS and so so so much understanding.
Such a hard day….in many ways.
thinking of you, friend! hugs
Thank you.
Well, not so shockingly I am right there with you. Worse off than you, but right there with you. My approach is healing while living (taken from the words of my favorite coach). Getting my mind right to move the body forward. Tired of “existing” and just ignoring. Want to be full on living….in so many ways.
As always, xoxox
“Existing” simply won’t work anymore. I can’t believe how I let myself get so lost.
<3 you can do this! so inspiring!
Thanks, Clare.
You’ve got this woman! Stay strong, positive, patient, and know that we and myself are here for you, whenever you need a moment to VENT! Off the treadmill and onto the pavement one step at a time!
Thanks! It’s a long, hard road.
Oh yes, i have been there. And when we slip.. we slide. And then we stress out about it. Which doesn’t help either. Praying for TRUE healing.. inside..out.
TRUE healing for me. Nothing fancy.
yes we hear ya and understand your frustration. we are going back to eating basic meals and doing our best to focus on our continued journey to heal our gut as we are still suffering from skin issues!! HUGS
When the gut is off, everything gets out of whack. I can’t wait to feel better. Hugs.
I fully understand the gut journey. It took me a long time to come to terms with needing to give up certain things and you are very good about that! Right now I”m doing 7 days sugar free and for me mentally I had to start with a small bite sized chunk so that it didn’t feel so overwhelming and well I just had to start!
Thanks, Amanda….it’s not easy. But worth it.
Feel your pain… Wondering, have you done breath tests for SIBO and fructose malabsorption? Sorry if that’s a stupid question. When I searched your site SIBO didn’t come up… So I wondered… Xxx
Hey Kristi! No, I have not. I maybe should, though. I have Colitis, known fact. I’m being tested for something else as well. Regardless, these 101 days will really help any and all gut issues. If not, I may be looking into Mayo in Minnesota. Thanks for stopping by:)
You should look into it – all gut conditions can be caused/exacerbated by small intestinal bacteria overgrowth: http://www.siboinfo.com/
I’m also getting my fructose malabsorption done cos cramping is going through the roof! They are both simple breath tests. I’m hoping those along with a leaky gut test will provide me with more answers. These things can’t be found with normal doctor/gastro tests… Hope you find some answers lovely xx
The road to healing is found deep within. It really is.
And I’m working hard on it.
I wish I could give you a big hug right now, Sarah! To encourage you but also to thank you. I started my 21 days of your Gutsy protocol back at the beginning of April on a day when I thought I might explode if I didn’t change my ways right then and there. A lot has happened since then. I saw some initial healing, but other medical issues cropped up that I have since addressed. Even though I have stayed within the protocol, I have let myself make unhealthy choices and have found myself sinking to a new low – emotionally, spiritually, and physically. I’m ready to do this – for good this time. Thank you so much for having the courage to say that we all have to start over sometimes. I hope we are both looking back on this in several months amazed by the progress we have made! Hugs and many prayers for you.
Hey you! Oh….I’ve been thinking of you. Yes, please know that I’m NOT PERFECT and I have periods of struggle with it, too. BUT, I have HOPE….one that just never leaves. I feel so at peace today. I know I’m making the right choice, doing the right things. I’m working on me, which is something I think I forget so often to do when I’m trying to help other women and be so confident for them:) Hugs. Always. xo