I felt a little bit nervous about going to California so soon after moving, but it was a great test of the change.
While in California last week, everyone kept saying things to me like, “Why would you move back to Minnesota?” “California to Minnesota? Shouldn’t it be the other way around?” “I can’t believe you moved right in the middle of winter!” “What’s it like living in such a small town in Southern Minnesota?”
And I won’t lie. There were a few moments when I found myself breathing a little deeper outside under the Palm trees in the warm sun. During my runs, I’d feel very nostalgic for that life I used to live, and I wondered if it was even real that I lived in California for 11 years.
Living there now seems like it was a lifetime ago, and quite honestly, that made me feel a sort of sadness.
Test of the Change
Going back to California this past week was a great test of the change. It tested my thoughts on Minnesota. Did I really love being back in Minnesota? Was Minnesota really everything I’m making it out to be? Or do I truly miss California, which was “home” for years?
I found my answer on the plane ride home yesterday.
I sat next to a woman and her 27-year-old daughter. I was in the middle of them. Our flight left at 6 am, so the woman’s daughter was asleep, and the mother and I chatted for quite some time. We talked about many things, but then, of course, about California and Minnesota.
The woman and her daughter were from Madison, Wisconsin and they had just gotten done with a road trip along the coast from Southern to Northern California (a trip we did while we lived in California – a drive that is breathtaking). During their drive along the coast, the woman told me she made the comment to her daughter, “I’m so sorry we raised you in Madison when there is all this beauty out here.”
I responded, “Don’t feel bad. She can always go to California to live if she wants to experience that. We did for 11 years. And then we went home.”
Just before the woman put her headphones on to watch a movie, I leaned over and said, “And for the record, I would never have wanted to be raised anywhere, but the Midwest. It sure is beautiful out here, but there is no place like the Midwest.”
And there was my answer – that test of the change answer. The outward beauty of something could and can just never compare to a life much deeper in value and meaning. For me, that life is was back when and is now found in a little town in Southern Minnesota.
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Previous 101-Day Change Series Posts
- Beginnings are Scary
- Change Pain Point
- Making Sense of Change
- Gratitude Journal
- Love Your Baby Girl
- Little Things Add Up
- House and Home
- Sunday Reflections
- Chocolate Shake
- 3-Ingredient Chocolate Peanut Butter Banana Shake
- Chaos is a Temporary State
- Thirsty Thursday
- Month One
- The Nudge to Connect
- 11 Favorites from 11 Years in California
- One Box at a Time
- Good Enough is Enough
- There is No Dishwasher
- WWDW Number 8
- Move Initiated
- Sharing My Journey
- Back with the Tribe
- Small Town Grocery Shopping Part One
- January 2018 Catch Up Over Bone Broth
- Patsy Clairmont is My Spirit Animal
- Let There Be Light
- Forgot About Rae
- Coconut Oil Makeup Remover How To
- 9 Ways to Embrace Winter
- Escaping People
- Coming Home
- 105 in 1,095
- 40 Before 40
- When Change Was Coming
- Behavior Correction
- Embracing Motherhood
- Two Things for Lent
- Gluten Free Recipe Roundup Six
- Breakdown to Breakthrough
- 18 Things About Me
- Still Hope
- Month Two
- Pain is Not Weakness Leaving the Body
- Too Much Stuff
- Small Changes
- Can Wait
- Halfway Mark
- Squad Goals
- Do We Really Change?
- February Catch Up Over Bone Broth
- 2018 Natural Products Expo West
- New Spaces
- Fight Like Hell
- 24 Low-FODMAP Items from Thrive Market
- Flower Girls and Ring Bearer
- Kitchen Nook
- Wrong Turns
- Unintentional Expo West 2018
- California Bubble
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